Videos

youtube lets you customize your video players. It's neat, so i tried it, and here it is.

your world

I'm not a part of your world
I don't take part in your games
I'm not friends with your friends
And I don't know anyone on your buddy list

I'm not a part of your world
With push button stimulation
The push and click results

I'm not a part of your world
completely consumed
secluded from the real world
you live in your head
on the living room floor

I'm not a part of your world,
And i'm sorry
I will never be
Never as good as them
Never doing the kinds of things that they do
Never tight or blond let alone both

I'm not a part of your world
I can be touched
I can feel pain
I can return thoughts and emotions
I can actually react to the things you say and do

I'm not a part of your world
And I can't compete
I'm never going to make you happy
So I'm giving up

The Cube

This movie is by Jim Henson... before the muppets... It is awesome.

I can Make you thin

So, there is a new show on TLC... There are 4 golden rules... I'm going to try them this week to see if they make a difference.

1. When you're hungry, eat.
- You shouldn't let yourself starve, also don't stuff yourself till you're sick.
2. Eat what you want, not what you think you should.
3. Eat Consciously.
- Put down eating utensils between bites
- Eat at about 1/4 the speed you normally do... "Pretend you're French"
- Savor every bite... Chew each bite about 20 times.
4. When you're not hungry, or when you think you're not hungry, stop eating.
- Even if there is food left on your plate, stop. You can eat it later.
- If you're hungry again in 10 minutes, eat again according to the rules, or try drinking a glass of water becuase you may be dehydrated.


More to come in the next few weeks.

you drive me crazy

You taunt me with your presence
the way you look at me
with your big green eyes
it takes all of me to hold back

the urge to lean in close
to lick your nose
your whole face

the things you let me do to you
the things you do to me
drive me crazy

i'm nuts about the way you touch me
and the way you pull my hair
how excited i am when i wake up with you
roll over and fall asleep again

i love your skin and your scent
and your soft dark hair
running my fingers through it
and how it knots up in the back

pulling your head in close
to feel your soft sweet lips on mine
makes me burn just like it did the first time

fuck reality

you leave me pining
hanging on an instance
and a burning yearning
concerning only holding you.

and though i know
that you stole it from brak show
that binary poem
stole me.

and here i would usually
write a stanza
that painfully depicts reality
but fuck reality

reality has no place
in my heart
which soars in a world
of imagination

i 1010010011 you too.

am pm

you told me to
forget that it happened

but i will never forget

the way you stalled
and waited

the way i was nervous
and anticipated

how you opened your door
but you turned back for more

and then how i pushed you away


i will never forget

how it felt
when you sent my heart racing

how i loved
that my ears were blazing

how i never looked back
and disappeared into the night so black

i will hold on to this forever

a glimpse of what could have been.